tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24473607123981835082024-03-12T23:32:47.070-04:00miracles of the mindmanilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.comBlogger211125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-49839663199148020022013-09-10T20:47:00.002-04:002013-09-10T20:47:31.029-04:00still tryingI am a survivor,<br />
a beginner<br />
a wisher of impossible things<br />
<br />
I have dreams I want to see come true<br />
and nightmares I want to set on fire,<br />
each ember a shadow of the mirrors of the darkness<br />
that traps my soul<br />
<br />
I am a destroyer<br />
I bring tragedies to all that once was me<br />
<br />
help me to set free,<br />
the butterflies that adorn my arms and legs and whispers<br />
born of pain and sadness<br />
<br />
my attempts at a cure<br />
my sad, meager attempts at distractions<br />
<br />
I stand, I weep, I crawl, I try to stand<br />
before you<br />
born again, transformed<br />
<br />
I am my faults<br />
I survive again, and again<br />
painless and beloved as they try<br />
to make me believe<br />
<br />
they say that I am a success of my failures<br />
but I know<br />
that each moment<br />
<br />
I just<br />
<br />
I want to try<br />
<br />
again<br />
<br />
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<br />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-47031146682231022222012-11-13T17:36:00.001-05:002012-11-13T17:36:30.758-05:00Ever forward <br />
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Memories of dreams lived long ago<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Have a tendency to speak, to live, to follow,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">All the days of our future, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">All the nights and in-betweens. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Memories can keep us.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Or they can be kept.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Tall tales, like ships, have a way of sailing
round about the world,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">But what of us, of them, is true?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">What of our wishes and dreams are exact and
new?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">There is a sound in the distance that directs
them home. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Or they can be direct, themselves. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">And forceful. Loud and clear.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">There might be a whisper of a word here or
there,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Something so small and paper thin that we hold
onto<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Even if we don’t know it yet,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">So that it doesn’t break free and float away,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Up and above and beyond, gone gone gone<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">The small glimmer of a chance we haven’t taken,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Awaits that moment when we are finally ready,
finally free of our <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Own inhibitions, trailing and pulling away from
the what ifs<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">That chance that lies ahead, patiently
searching the horizon<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">For the bob of our heads over that rim of land,
denoting our arrival,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Our preparedness.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">And before we are ever completely aware, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">What once was a journey begun so long ago has
become the bright adventure that we call life, that we know as the right-now, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">as the here and now and take it all, no
hesitation, and no second chances<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">What would you do?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Would you walk with your head held high, with
your eyes straight ahead, and your hands free now, having left all your old
world behind?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Would you take the chance to continue that
first step?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Would you let the fire in your soul burn out? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Or would you feed it with all the vigour of
life you have come to appreciate?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">As old worlds collapse and new worlds are
constructed, would you set your front door east or west? To welcome the day, or
to wish it a peaceful reprieve?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">There is only so much hope we can harbour, only
so much we know how to hold<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Fires are lit, and bright, but dim and die.
From the ashes, dreams can rest in peace, or be reborn and breathe again. It
all depends on you. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Would you sculpt a new flame from the ashes?
Would you fuel the fire, the delight, from the sparks within your very own,
experienced soul? The embers that glow warm with each passing year, each cycle
of seasons.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">How many sparks have you danced away, genuine
and carefree?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Do you let your life glow?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Or burn fierce in the face of the world?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Will you feed the next life? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Does it take a stand and hold fast? Or willow
around in the breeze? Will you let it stay that way?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">May the future hold bright for you, for all of
us, for all the small minds and the big ones, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">For all the fame and solitude,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">In memoriam, and in repose,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">For all the soon to-be’s<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Somewhere, beyond all make believe, beyond the hopes and dreams, beyond
the trees, the horizons, and all sight, <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">There is a light.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">There is a future. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Darkness falls away….<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="background: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial; font-size: 10.0pt;">Into the light, you embrace life<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-69786525379672384442012-11-04T14:19:00.002-05:002012-11-04T14:19:44.553-05:00capturethere is always that one memory that catches up with you<br />
the one that takes your breath away<br />
it finds you and leaves you behind<br />
breathless<br />
<br />
up above the clouds you find a tear from a dream you lost long ago<br />
a souvenir that claims your soul<br />
and leaves you paralyzed<br />
<br />
you cannot fight<br />
you cannot face
the terrors of the truth<br />
but you can learn and believe that your fear will melt away<br />
that time will come and comfort you<br />
reawaken<br />
<br />
as the light shines on and on<br />
hope flutters in your heart and changes everything<br />
suddenly that fate you succumbed to changes, rearranges, and submerges<br />
beneath your feet
<br />
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<br />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-69867158381609775802012-09-30T22:43:00.001-04:002012-09-30T23:00:31.532-04:00i'm lost before goodbyewhen dreams are shaken<br />
and memories left in mid sentence<br />
there is a sadness irreplaceable.<br />
<br />
there is a mourning uncontrolled,<br />
unsatisfied and unforgiving<br />
<br />
for those lost years<br />
to be recovered in a heartbeat,<br />
to be settled before<br />
it is too late.<br />
<br />
but that's not how time works<br />
it's not how the world goes<br />
each turn is another look ahead,<br />
one more to separate us from the past.<br />
<br />
there is almost no hope<br />
but to linger in memoriam<br />
and comfort those<br />
who, like we, find ourselves lost<br />
together.<br />
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<br />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-13448565349431987622012-06-05T18:08:00.001-04:002012-06-05T18:08:27.256-04:00when you're gonecome with me and take my hand<br />
share my words, heal my pain<br />
everyday I'm crying out to you<br />
but you don't even know,<br />
you don't have a clue<br />
<br />
it feels ten times longer<br />
than reality shows<br />
I miss your smile<br />
I miss your eyes closed<br />
when you kissed me<br />
<br />
now I wander around,<br />
day to day, night after night,<br />
I wander as a vagabond<br />
for each breath may be my last<br />
as each moment filters past<br />
<br />
I miss you<br />
<br />
when I find the time<br />
to stop and stare at the world around me<br />
when I slow down I begin to comprehend<br />
that days are precious gifts<br />
that each revives and uplifts<br />
my soul<br />
<br />
I don't want to walk this road alone<br />
the journey may be long<br />
but the steps are simple<br />
and I need a friend<br />
<br />
I hope for you<br />
I hope for today and tomorrow<br />
I call to you<br />
in the silence of my heart<br />
and hope somehow<br />
that you take my hand in yours<br />
and walk with me awhile<br />
<br />
for it is a long lonely trip I take<br />
it is full of heartaches and life lessons<br />
I miss you<br />
<br />
if you can't take me with you,<br />
maybe I can take your memory with me<br />
on my journey<br />
I start anew, today<br />
<br />
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I believe in music, in darkness, light, and love<br />
I believe in the things that put sparkles in our eyes<br />
I believe hopes and dreams are as countless<br />
as the stars in the skies<br />
<br />
I believe shadows are not our only friends,<br />
and that misery is by no means the end<br />
That sometimes you've got to face the fight<br />
Suffer, live, and know it'll be all right<br />
<br />
I believe in future things, small and grand<br />
and in between<br />
That hopeless is only a place I've been<br />
Out of reach, and here again
<br />
But I believe I can conquer this<br />
Seal my sorrow with an iron fist<br />
Shield my heart from worse for wear<br />
But I'll let the world know that I still care<br />
<br />
And I believe life will go on<br />
Despite the heartache and troubled bonds<br />
I know for a fact I am here and able<br />
I will build all again, strong and stable<br />
I believe in miracles, second chances, sudden things<br />
Amd I believe that time can, maybe, heal all things<br />
<br />
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I walk the high road, along the cliffs<br />
I stand and stare and read<br />
I repair the pieces of me that I have<br />
left over<br />
<br />
I am keeping the middle of myself safe<br />
and secret<br />
I won't let anyone near it now<br />
<br />
I'm keeping the important things<br />
safe and sound<br />
<br />
I won't let this heart of mine<br />
find trouble<br />
I'm saving time<br />
<br />
instead of heartaches I'll have<br />
thundershowers and adventures<br />
I'll fine the little missing pieces of<br />
happiness I long ago forgot I had<br />
I'll put it all back together<br />
and I won't turn backmanilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-32493258396623951162011-12-27T19:56:00.000-05:002017-05-04T20:33:00.164-04:00anticipationI am afraid<br />
I feel lost when I think about it,<br />
and I can't seem to understand what or why or how<br />
<br />
I am reduced<br />
to the very base of life<br />
to the smallest site of hope and shadows<br />
<br />
There are no words left for me<br />
No lines or songs adrift<br />
no shadows to hold onto<br />
<br />
but somewhere in the deepest caverns of my soul<br />
I am alivemanilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-2326884096397452172011-12-26T19:56:00.000-05:002012-06-07T22:18:40.828-04:00sometimes the lights flickerI burn bridges<br />
I build walls<br />
and I steel away on<br />
homemade rafts in the middle of the night<br />
silent and quiet<br />
and alone<br />
<br />
I light fires<br />
I incite riots<br />
and I inflame my soul with<br />
songs and shouts and cries<br />
<br />
and when there is no one around<br />
to call me<br />
I whisper<br />
<br />
so I can speak my peace<br />
and sometimes all the little lights<br />
flicker in the windows as I go<br />
<br />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-47051905379187266482011-12-24T19:52:00.000-05:002012-10-24T21:04:31.823-04:00silent night<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-37396419599221007422011-12-21T19:42:00.000-05:002012-09-30T22:59:47.740-04:00gofollow your heart, they say<br />
let it tell you where to go, and who to love,<br />
and what to do forever<br />
but don't let it rush you into hasty decisions<br />
or things you'll regret<br />
<br />
they say, that no good deed goes unpunished,<br />
so tread carefully.<br />
but how then do we learn what is right?<br />
or what is wrong...<br />
and how do we grow up,<br />
when all around us are forces that hold us in,<br />
and keep us young.<br />
<br />
all my life I've been sheltered and protected<br />
and I need to escape. I need to just go<br />
there are times these days where I find myself<br />
stuck in structure and left alone<br />
<br />
but I need to go somewhere quiet.<br />
somewhere to truly listen to my heart,<br />
where the sounds of the world are muted<br />
and the lights of the word are dim<br />
and I can be alone and all I know<br />
and all I see and feel is the smallest truth of my soul,<br />
the smallest bit if my life, of my future, of my fire.<br />
<br />
i want to know my direction.<br />
how do i fit in in this world.<br />
where are my die cast?<br />
where does my puzzle piece fit in.<br />
<br />
to all the world and all those in it, \<br />
for fear and fame and adventure and<br />
all the trials and tribulations that co-occur<br />
I must rediscover and balance<br />
<br />
I must find my way and go where the stars lead me,<br />
where I can be free<br />
and grown up and true and alive<br />
not living in these paper times<br />
not living all these left behind dreams and wishes<br />
from others long ago.<br />
<br />
my dreams are my own and my life is independent,<br />
or will be, soon.<br />
for the future radiates like light through glass bottles.<br />
<br />
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<br />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-1887925702708099322011-12-19T19:47:00.000-05:002012-06-07T22:14:34.843-04:00leave it by the watersidejust leave it all behind<br />
don't think of me<br />
don't talk to me<br />
don't wish upon a star<br />
<br />
because I don't want to remember<br />
I don't want to care<br />
<br />
all I am am,<br />
I let you in<br />
I let you into my soul<br />
and you just let me go<br />
<br />
I wished on everything<br />
that you would stay<br />
that you would say hello<br />
when all you could do was goodbye<br />
<br />
I know it's not easy to make<br />
these choices<br />
but it's the difficult things<br />
that are worth it<br />
<br />
but after all this<br />
after all we've been through<br />
I guess you don't feel as I do<br />
I guess you don't care<br />
<br />
thank you for teaching me all about life<br />
and love and heartbreak<br />
I couldn't have asked for a better teacher<br />
<br />
I don't want your sorry<br />
I don't want a goodbye<br />
Don't wish me well<br />
don't touch me<br />
<br />
just take what you have<br />
what is yours and go<br />
and leave it by the waterside<br />
let the tide take it away....manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-76028070339167259992011-12-18T19:47:00.010-05:002012-01-22T21:12:41.183-05:00forget itforget it or don't<br />
forget me not<br />
or do as you will<br />
plant a flower or plant a tree<br />
leave one light on just for me<br />
write a letter and set in in the post<br />
remember dearly what you love the most<br />
<br />
keep your secrets<br />
or set them free<br />
believe what it is to be<br />
alive and living<br />
to dream, and be dreaming<br />
show what you think and know to be real<br />
give it a chance<br />
<br />
listen to the records and shout out the songs<br />
when no one is looking<br />
when no one's around<br />
fight the fire of your desire<br />
let the flames out<br />
let them burn higher<br />
<br />
remember what it's like to know fear and disaster<br />
wash them away with love and with laughter<br />
remember the names of your closest friends<br />
and how when they spoke<br />
you could be mistaken<br />
now from then<br />
all the time it's been<br />
don't forget...<br />
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looking searching beyond the horizon<br />
waiting for those last few obstacles to be overcome<br />
<br />
a final quiz<br />
I could have been ambitious<br />
I could have been home by now<br />
I could be wrapped in the arms of my love<br />
my friend<br />
<br />
I suffer treachery of what ifs and last minute changes<br />
that gut feeling anxiety when you know it's now too late<br />
the ease of one less thing to worry about, though,<br />
that is refreshing<br />
<br />
as good news come streaming in<br />
passing grades, confirmed plans<br />
my heart fills with excited anticipation<br />
<br />
as that hour draw near<br />
and I can finally<br />
make my way home<br />
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friend of mine<br />
why don't you answer<br />
when I ask why?<br />
<br />
why are there stars instead of sparks<br />
why is the night so full of dark?<br />
why do I cry before I fall asleep?<br />
and why oh why won't you answer me?<br />
<br />
mirror mirror on the wall,<br />
why is my reflection, always so small?<br />
where does the spring come from<br />
and how does it get here?<br />
<br />
are there places that I don't know,<br />
where someday I could hope to go,<br />
or must I sit and read<br />
about them for eternity?<br />
<br />
why are wars so present here<br />
that every life and every year<br />
must know about them<br />
firsthand?<br />
<br />
why can't those be the words confined to spaces within a page within a book bound within a volume within the panes and stories of a library in some small town in a place I never heard before?<br />
<br />
why don't the stars stay out during the day when everything is beautiful and clear and bright and real and here and not imagined?<br />
<br />
tell me why, mirror in the sky, why do I know you and how do I see, what is it that's so special about me, that keeps my momma so close and my sisters so dear and my poppa so big and my brothers so near?<br />
<br />
why do you think I ask all this of you, all these questions just like so, all those miracles day in and out where life is imagined but real in a thought.... <br />
<br />
why can't you hear me, is my voice that small?<br />
<br />
oh my vision, my friend, not at all<br />
<br />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-26675001188839428882011-12-12T11:06:00.000-05:002012-01-18T19:19:45.505-05:00winter fleetingmy tears, I cry,<br />
the rain...knows why<br />
I let myself go<br />
to the sky<br />
each winter when it snows<br />
the flakes will sparkle,<br />
soft and slow<br />
<br />
time passes in the cold<br />
outside, nowhere to go<br />
in the house its warm<br />
and lone-ly<br />
it's safe and cozy too<br />
<br />
all but me<br />
these long months I dream and see<br />
nothing behind or in store to be<br />
I hope and wish that seasons flee<br />
winter fleeting<br />
<br />
but when the snow falls<br />
all is lovely and bright<br />
all is calm and all is right<br />
don't you hear the songs they sing<br />
round Christmas time,<br />
the caroling<br />
<br />
joy to the world and peace on earth<br />
you are not alone<br />
do sing with us<br />
for life and laughter lives to be<br />
joy for all, for you and me<br />
<br />
with smiles red and good cheer<br />
we welcome you now<br />
we welcome you here<br />
stay awhile and let's be merry<br />
festive<br />
bright red roses and cherries<br />
deep green trees holly and berries<br />
Christmas time joyeux noel<br />
be happy let your sorrows go<br />
<br />
let this time of year<br />
bring you happiness and cheer<br />
that when the summer months return<br />
all too soon you will start to yearn<br />
for the quiet moments of here and now<br />
you're wishing away,<br />
no sight no sound<br />
<br />
to soon it will be, right now don't you see<br />
this time is a gift so precious so rare<br />
keep it and treasure in your memory<br />
<br />
for time as you know,<br />
is fleeting<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-TOkj_SMJS7k/TxdhXklahMI/AAAAAAAAAN4/LHcAG5B_uig/s1600/images.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-TOkj_SMJS7k/TxdhXklahMI/AAAAAAAAAN4/LHcAG5B_uig/s1600/images.jpg" /></a></div>manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-71099950658927112512011-12-11T15:14:00.002-05:002011-12-11T15:59:43.871-05:00<div style="background-color: white; color: #993300; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><div style="font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">I send my thanks to Brian for nominating my blog for this Liebster Award. It is refreshing to know that my poems are so appreciated and valued. Your encouragement keeps me motivated to continue with this project, what started as my mid year's resolution. </span></span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">take a look at his blog, </span></span></span></span></span> <a href="http://briansramblingsfromtheedge.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">brians ramblings from the edge</a>: <span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">http://briansramblingsfromtheedge.blogspot.com/ </span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">His words are more like love letters, filled with a devotion that seems to be lost in today's world. I admire it greatly.</span></span></span></span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><br />
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<div style="font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">The Liebster Blog award is given to up-and-coming bloggers who have fewer than 200 followers. Liebster is German and means dearest.</span></span></div><div style="font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px;"><br />
</div><div style="font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"></span><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">The rules for the Liebster Award are:</span></span><span style="font-size: 20px;"></span></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"></span><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">1. Thank the giver and link back to the blogger who gave it to you.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">2. Reveal your five personal nominations and let them know by leaving a comment on their blog.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">3. Copy and paste the award on your blog.</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">4. Have faith that your followers will spread the love too!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"></div><span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">These blogs are my nominations.<br />
Please take a moment to visit each of them.<br />
They are special people with wonderful blogs!</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><a href="http://thatcomesandgoes.blogspot.com/">elaborate nonsense</a>: http://thatcomesandgoes.blogspot.com/</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">her stories inspire and provoke thoughtful questions and reflections on our own lives. Her writing is beautiful. </span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"> </span></span></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"> <a href="http://idratherbewild.blogspot.com/">...and not, when I came to die, discover that I have not lived.</a>: http://idratherbewild.blogspot.com/</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">so relate-able to the things we struggle with every day. Her openness is inspiring. </span></span></span></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><a href="http://ebibenta.blogspot.com/">feathers and ink</a>: http://ebibenta.blogspot.com/</span></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">an inspiring and unique look at the world. who knew so much could be said in so few words and with such elegance. </span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><a href="http://prestonandcorine.blogspot.com/">yesterday</a>:http://prestonandcorine.blogspot.com/</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">lovely life experiences</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #993300; font-family: 'Josefin Slab'; font-size: 15px; line-height: 21px; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 20px;"><span style="font-family: 'trebuchet ms';"><a href="http://dandelionsoup.blogspot.com/">dandelion soup</a>: http://dandelionsoup.blogspot.com/</span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #073763;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Helvetica Neue",Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">her creativity is admirable and honestly, I am envious of her talent. her skill is exquisite , in her words and in her art. </span></span></span><br />
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</span></span></span>manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-24337512778516305872011-12-11T07:41:00.000-05:002011-12-11T14:47:45.318-05:00see through meyou looked into my eyes,<br />
past the fear I held inside<br />
you held my hand<br />
and touched my heart<br />
<br />
I never thought to love once more<br />
or surface to the world again<br />
but you saw me, you held my hand<br />
'let me always be your man'<br />
<br />
through the days and weeks that passed<br />
through all the time we want to last<br />
each minute slow, the heart beats true<br />
I give it all, and all to you <br />
<br />
the words you softly spoke<br />
I knew then it was no joke<br />
for the feelings I held deep<br />
I am yours, and yours to keep<br />
<br />
my God, how I do,<br />
I love you<br />
<br />
<br />
<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-4-RtO1wG_gk/TqSokZibPoI/AAAAAAAAAHo/-WqgCBX3ZTE/s1600/images.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-4-RtO1wG_gk/TqSokZibPoI/AAAAAAAAAHo/-WqgCBX3ZTE/s1600/images.jpg" /></a>manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-77422005652737545862011-12-07T19:43:00.005-05:002012-03-30T21:27:16.182-04:00avalancheone by one the flakes fall down<br />
they settle for a moment<br />
then melt<br />
<br />
more and more start to come<br />
they congregate<br />
and melt<br />
<br />
the temperature falls<br />
the sky stays greymanilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-6115103288488315002011-12-06T19:43:00.014-05:002012-01-22T21:23:53.090-05:00meepwhen I close my eyes and hope<br />
to rejuvenate all my shadows<br />
to mirror the person I am now<br />
not who I used to be<br />
<br />
I must sit and reflect<br />
I wasn't bad,<br />
don't get me wrong<br />
I wasn't alone<br />
for very long<br />
I wasn't mad when the sun didn't shine<br />
and I wasn't sad, because you're mine<br />
<br />
but who I am now<br />
is all I am<br />
and more than I was<br />
more than yesterday<br />
and not quite what I will be<br />
ever changing<br />
ever growing<br />
that is me,<br />
all ever wanting<br />
to know to dream to be<br />
<br />
<br />
<img src="https://encrypted-tbn1.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTwiFPEOTpYIeWGDsjcW1dn_tEMQke5wUiq5vrUfWHXIuNGsMFB" />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-66906779712140780602011-12-05T20:38:00.002-05:002012-01-22T21:02:37.508-05:00this confusionI don't know what to say<br />
or even what to do<br />
before today I thought I knew<br />
happiness<br />
<br />
Where I am is where I wanted to be<br />
<br />
but now with you<br />
with your words and what you have to say<br />
I find it hard to focus<br />
and I cannot not concentrate<br />
<br />
my life takes a new road<br />
it follows the stars,<br />
wherever they go<br />
<br />
I don't know what to say<br />
I don't know what to do<br />
I feel things now<br />
deeper than my heart<br />
<br />
this confusion<br />
I am lost in<br />
I can't find my way out<br />
I look for familiar faces<br />
but I stand alone and blind<br />
<br />
I want to trust my heart<br />
but cannot decipher<br />
it's small hints and messages<br />
all the things it says and does<br />
I am clueless<br />
<br />
<img src="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSeFd24K2NAUIRZj4UN2B5pSajHRCJyROXxZh_SNEXbZJq3HfhF2A" />manilamonsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02272891448443512037noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2447360712398183508.post-3045428834978691062011-12-04T11:09:00.017-05:002011-12-10T19:54:46.640-05:00my lastI remember last night<br />
the last kiss I had, the last one I gave<br />
the last song I heard, I sang,<br />
I whispered<br />
the last thing I had hoped for,<br />
yearned and pleaded for<br />
the last time I cried myself to sleep<br />
<br />
the last dream I had, <br />
one dream<br />
the last miracle I witnessed <br />
one day<br />
may have the fortune to witness another <br />
<br />
but now<br />
I won't know<br />
what there is for me<br />
what there is to hear or see<br />
I go to bed and dream of thee<br />
I fall asleep<br />
of my lasts I think<br />
<br />
I hope in the morning,<br />
I shall wake again and live<br />
each day with integrity<br />
with love and sincerity<br />
as if it were my last<br />
as if it were my last<br />
<br />
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<br />
I write the words I cannot speak<br />
for fear of hurting your soul<br />
but while yours live on<br />
in comfort and ease<br />
mine begins to go<br />
<br />
with each new dawn begins a new day<br />
leaving memories of my pain<br />
a heart so full cannot run away<br />
but it cannot live through this<br />
again<br />
<br />
I should have wandered far and gone<br />
and never look back when I did<br />
but as it stands I have no home<br />
and no choices left to decide<br />
<br />
help me help me<br />
get back what once I was<br />
what once was me<br />
<br />
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we look down below<br />
out toward the horizon<br />
and into our souls<br />
<br />
We seek the pure goodness<br />
of He who was here<br />
in hopes that His news<br />
will ease all our fear<br />
<br />
For when the heavens shall part<br />
and voice speak below<br />
I am pleased with my son<br />
follow where He goes<br />
<br />
I'll show you the way<br />
as a shepherd herds sheep<br />
and forever and always<br />
your hearts I shall keep<br />
<br />
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a familiar world to me<br />
unanswered questions are<br />
pondered<br />
as my wishes begin to develop<br />
into dreams as I sleep<br />
<br />
Whatever it is<br />
or wherever I am<br />
it always turns out right<br />
<br />
the things I live through<br />
during the day,<br />
and everything that happens<br />
I know by the end<br />
<br />
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